Stress MAX

I've been doing so much thinking and its not getting me anywhere. Everyone has begun or even finished their applications but I haven't done anything. I don't know where to start. I don't even know what to choose. So many choices, I absolutely despise making decisions especially those that change your future, your life. I don't want to be selfish and only think of myself but trying to take everything into account just isn't getting me anywhere, what more helping me in my decision. No one close to me has sufficient experience and knowledge to advice me and guide me thoroughly throughout the process. I don't know whether I should go straight or even stay on here for another year or so. It's true, what dad said about me being able to take care of myself but not being sure about me living on my own. My peers have family and close friends they can depend on there, I'll be the first ever member of my extended family going there. It's an exhilirating thought but an extremely terrifying one as well. I, myself do not know if I am ready. But after all, like they said, I'm going to have to grow up one day. GROW UP, CAROLINE! The quality of education and recognisation makes a difference too. So what if people say prejudism and having a double standard is just an uncivilized way of thinking, it still exists in the world today, and I'm willing to bet that it isn't going away anytime soon. I don't want to be looked down on for the rest of my life just because of one bad decision. However, that doesn't mean it is all bad. I get to save daddy's money, and still get the same degree (I don't understand how this part and double standard-ness can co-exist.) And just that decision alone will lead to more choices, hence decisions! I have to choose a good college, with Very good choices (AND make sure I make the grade to enter into the Unis) and lecturers, a reasonable price (daddy's money again. Even if he says he does not mind paying, I'm not that heartless to just waste it like that, I've got a little brother) the list goes on. There's really no point of me ranting here but I just feel so overwhelmed. I don't feel good enough for the universities. I don't know if my course is for me, making it God's will or mine. I don't know if I should start applying or not. I don't know if I should apply for both. I don't know if it is in God's will for me to go to the UK or to stay here for another year and do credit transfer, or maybe not go at all (Alam Flora better save a space for me). I don't know what God's purpose for me is. I don't know if we'll end up never being able to see each other. I don't know how I'll be able to stand it. I don't know a lot of things. But one things for sure, I leave it all in God's hands to guide me to whats right for my life. Hopefully I haven't screwed things up too badly that I'd have to make a 180 and start all over. Sigh I better start praying really hard. =( I wish mummy was here to help me

Bye bye trials

Trials ended today. Last paper was Law. So much to write, so little time. The usual la. Now I'm just praying I'll pass haha

Went Gardens MV with Jem after the paper. Stress relieve! We decided to watch 'Time traveller's wife'. Okay fine, I suggested it. Haha. Bf being oh so sweet agreed =D The show was... emo max! Damn sweet i tell you! Can make you cry kind! But the time travelling part is kinda weird. So the conclusion is, watch the show for the nice romantic emo stuffs, DON'T analyse the time travelling part. And no, he (Henry) can't change the past or future when he time travels. Neither can he bring his clothes along with him. Its not an AWESOME show, but it isn't all that bad either.

OH there's a new shopping mall called Wangsa Walk in.... Wangsa Maju, I assume. Chris has his piano there. So we went to explore the place. They have small boutiques, FOS!!!!, Popular... (list goes on) AND TGV IS GOING TO BE OPENED THERE SOON! (a bowling alley too) Ampang point so can't compete with this new place! haha Only disadvantage about that place is the jam every Saturday from Ampang Jaya towards zoo. Oh well. Oh they have Celebrity Fitness also. =D No, I'm not intending to work out (eventhough its the new IN thing)

Somehow, I like pictures showing... partially. Dont ask why. lol

Like this one! =D
(Earrings match the shirt perfectly! lol)

hugs and kisses. xoxo heh

Lol

Its 1.15am

I've got college tomorrow

I have trials in 3 days

I haven't studied in the past 2 days

I find them really hilarious

I find it entertaining

I don't care

I need sleep

I pod

I phone

I sleep

Bye bye

AWW

Sigh

I think I'm getting myself involved in too many things. I feel like.... screaming. I keep feeling like I need a break... from EVERYTHING! maybe except bf. But yea. I'm just starting to find everything so overwhelming. With high expectations and all. I hate not being up to expectation, but in the end get stressed up unneccessarily. And mind you, my expectations are like high, and so are... everyone around me's. Okay i'm done ranting now. Meeting in church soon. in like... 23 minutes to be precise. Chris is having PMR. He'll do well. He's smart.

I miss the busy boss.

Lame

As in the limping kinda lame. Not the JMG kinda lame.

I suggest you only read this post if you're really bored and have NOTHING better to do. (I posted it as i was bored and had nothing better to do) Its gonna be all about my sprained foot and scraped knee =D

I sprained/twisted (I dunno which it is) my ankle/side of my right foot on Saturday during YAlympics. SIGHSS. Clumsy me. I was running away from the guys with water guns. And when I fell, they aimed and fired. So I wasn't only injured, I was wet. Only Jonc noticed at first and according to him it was thanks to my retarded face. My pain receptors are joined to my laughing ones. So when i'm in pain, I laugh and then I feel like crying so I'm doing practically both. So you can imagine the retarded-ness of it all. I also scraped my left knee after losing balance due to the sprain. Yes, I'm a klutz.

Yesterday I couldnt even limp. That foot would allow me to rest ANY weight on it so.. yea. I was rolling around with my computer chair. haha it was my make-do wheel chair. lol. Showering was tortuous since I couldn't put any weight on my right foot at all and my left knee had an open wound. I couldn't lift my left knee up and I couldn't wet my right foot (according to some chinese 'fong sap' thing). So imagine the 'strategy' I had to come up with. haha Oh and my thigh muscles hurt. lol Yes now we all know how unfit Caroline is. Go ask my dad, he'll tell you a whole essay on how unfit I am haha

Today I can limp! Happy me! So i dont need to roll around anymore. haha but the blue black on my foot is more like.. dark purple now. I shall even post up photos for you! (see how bored I am )

Saturday night. Doesnt look too bad eh?

Look at my ankle! The part where the colour is weird. Yeaaa! Purple!!

Oh btw I used my 0.3 megapixel phone camera for this so that would explain the quality.

I'm too lazy to take nice, clear pictures. So this will do. =)

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5 days later....

its still PURPLE =D

and then I feel like being random

I've always said my ambition was to be a nun.

Deep huh?

Chick..Chick..Chicken.. Flap fly. heh see down.

Of Spectacular! and my running nose

Well, if you're wondering what Spectacular! is, its a movie. An original nickelodeon movie. Nick nick nick ne nick nick nick nickelodeonn. Its kinda like HSM and Camp rock. Typical but I find it entertaining. So sue me.

So... CF Camp was last weekend. Had great fun! I'll show you some pictures after this.. Left on friday and came back on MERDEKAAAAA! 31 Aug this year was kinda dull if you ask me. Guess its cos of the influenza A(H1N1) and all. So.. we had quite a relaxing camp as everything was spread out in 4 days. The speaker was Mr. Segar Moses and the camp theme was Impacting ourself, Impacting others. I2O2 in short. I'm really lazy to type out the whole schedule of what we did and all so all you have to know is it was FUN and YOUU MISSED OUTT!! =D




Ooh, yesterday a few of us. okay not a few. QUITE a few of us went to Sunway Lagoon. The amusement park and the wet park. Kai's idea.. so yup. For once, I actually sat most of the rides. Of course now everyone that went knows what a scaredy cat I am. lol Let me give you an idea of what Jem heard while sitting a ride with me. It was one of those... er you sit in a float and they push you down a slide (Jem isn't that light heh) so yes. we flew.. First all I did was 'aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh' then 'AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH'. Then came the go up a lil and super steep slope down part. This is what I said (According to Jem, I dont rmmb a thing) 'OH SHIT.... muuuummmmmmmmyyyyyyyyyyy' And that wasn't the worst ride of the day. But I bet you're bored listening to me narrate my SCAREDY CAT experiences so that'll be enough =) Overall my Thursday was fun! and.. then I fell ill. Oh and I had Kim Gary for dinner!! =D

They had futsal in Tropicana just now. I was supposed to go. But i'm sick =( Sob. Oh well. OOH i slept 17 hours last night! Awesome yeah ? =D Slept at 9 pm yesterday, woke up at 2 pm today!


Goodnight world. Another early night for me I guess. teehee